HEAVY HEART

I am a friend.. A friend that has a heart.. A friend who isn't there just in the good times but also in the worst of times.. If they hurt I hurt... As June 12 is creeping up I just want to hug one of my dearest friends and take the pain away or at least make it easier to cope with.. But as we all know life doesn't give us that option.. June 12.. Many of you are I am sure wondering what June 12 is.. 1 year ago June 12, 2011 one of my dearest friends whom I Love to death and her husband and sons kissed their beautiful daughter/sister for the last time... The pain they endured .. The pain of losing a child.. No parent should ever have to endure the pain they felt and continue to feel daily..

Sophee Olivia Widner born November 23, 2010... Born with full Trisomy 18... Dr's said she would not make it to birth... Sophee proved them wrong.. Dr's said if she did she would only live hours.. Sophee proved them wrong.. Dr's said she would never be stable enough to have heart surgery.. Sophee proved them wrong yet again.. Dr's said she would never show emotion or thrive... Sophee latched on a few times, and showed emotion... Dr's said she would never go home.. Guess what , wrong again... She was such a tiny one but SO STRONG and ready to conquer the world .. There were very few days her mommy did not have a bow on her.. She was always full of cuteness.. Everyday Summer her mommy would post a daily picture.. It made my day.. Wednesday June 8 I went and spent the evening with Summer and talking to Sophee and her big brown eyes would look at me.. She was just perfect in my eyes and to her family....I could have set there forever... I took bows and flowers of course.. Even in PICU she had a bow holder... Sophee was such a fighter and fought until she took her last breath in her mommy's arms on June 12, 2011...

That day my heart crushed for Summer and the family and Sophee will forever hold a little piece of my heart... Those next days everyone was quiet.. Tears shed.. I did make a bow at her moms request.. That was hard knowing I was making a bow to match her daughters outfit she was going to be buried in .. But it also touched me... Heavy Hearts...But nothing compares to what Summer and the family felt.. I can't even begin to imagine the pain they felt or the pain they feel today ...

So June 12, release a balloon or 2 for sweet Sophee's first ANGELVERSARY and keep Summer and Jimmy and the boys in your prayers on this day.. Say a prayer.. And don't forget to hug your kids a little tighter and even when they drive you nuts, Thank God we have them here with us.. Never underestimate your children.. Never take the for granted.. Never go to bed with out saying I love you and with a kiss and a hug.. You never know what the future holds.. what the next 10 minutes hold..

Please remember Summer and her family and pray for their broken hearts.. Remember their sweet Angel Sophee...

                              SOPHEE OLIVIA WIDNER

                                     11-23-10 / 6-12-11

                     201 DAYS SHE BLESSED THIS EARTH

                        LOVE AND MISS YOU BABY GIRL

I LOVE YOU SUMMER ... YOU MEAN THE WORLD TO ME GIRL........ MISS YOU LITTLE MISS TUTU....BLOWING  KISSES UP TO YOU AS YOUR FIRST ANGELVERSARY APPROACHES .... MAY YOU WATCH OVER YOUR DEAR PARENTS AND SIBLINGS ON THIS DAY AND ALWAYS......

MUCH LOVE,
Jamie