8 years..................

8 years ago tonight, April 26, 2004 I was overdue and anxious.. We were more than ready to meet our first child.. Our baby girl. I was not in any discomfort and to be honest I had the PERFECT pregnancy everything was perfect from day of conception!! The only thing that I as a first time mommy to be was worried about was I had tested positive for group B.. No big deal but again as a first time mommy to be I was alarmed.. HA.. In all honesty I could have probably gone another 2 weeks and felt fine. But we were anxious, we wanted to meet this baby girl.. So there we were in Whole Foods looking for rasberry leaf tea, and next to Walmart looking for castor oil.. Yes I did it, totally drank the bottle of castor oil mixed with OJ and made 4 bags of the strongest tea  possible... The tea was horrible... I got in shower and crawled in bed feeling a tad woozy and felt I could puke at any given moment.. Finally I fell asleep.. Justin's alarm went off at 5 am and he got ready for work.. I rolled (literally) out of bed to pee... and laughed while thinking to myself what a joke that junk is not gonna put me in labor.. Hubby kissed me goodbye and asked how I was feeling. Fine.. Back to sleep I went and around 9 am I was woken by these cramps.. I assumed the castor oil had done what it usually does... Makes you poop.. As I went to the bathroom it was bloody show, and the cramps were not what I thought , They were coming on and off every 5 min or so.... SO IT WAS EITHER TIME OR THE CASTOR OIL AND TEA WORKED... On April 27 2004 Justin came home from work and off we went to Hospital.. I was 4 cm dilated and in labor... After laboring all day Kayleigh Madison came in to this world 4/27/2004 9:07 pm weighing in at 8.8 lbs and 21 in long.......... A beautiful blessing ... Our first born.. Our daughter.. Kayleigh, you teach me daily , Even though we don't see eye to eye on everything you are my girl and I love you so much. I am the person I am today because of you baby girl.. I can't believe its been 8 years... It feels like we were just coming home from hospital... 8 years of pure bliss.. I thank God picked me to be your mom.. Happy Birthday Lu Bird I love you to the moon and back .............

I LOVE YOU BABY GIRL... HAPPY 8TH BIRTHDAY

IT FALLS ON EASTER THIS YEAR

4 years.. Tomorrow marks 4 years since the tragic death of my mother.. It does not feel like 4 years... These last 4 years have really opened me up to the Lord, new relationships, and another little one.. Not that my mother was in my life 4 years ago... She had been a heavy and when I say heavy I mean heavy drinker since I was just a wee one.. It only got worse and she just slowly turned to shambles... Even though I did not allow my self a relationship with this once beautiful woman, She is my mom and it was not until I was 14 I chose to not have much to do with her.. Being around her caused more pain then happiness and I could not do it...

I wanted to just say ... HAPPY EASTER MOTHER.. I LOVE YOU..
She is in a much better place.. not on the streets... she is an angel at peace....

HAPPY EASTER TO ALL....
MUCH LOVE
Jamie