LIFE... SOMETIMES WE NEED TO STEP BACK AND TAKE A LOOK .....

JUST A QUOTE I HAVE ALWAYS LOVED!! AND IT FITS SO WELL WITH WHERE THIS BLOG IS GOING... 

Close to a month ago I suddenly was hit with an emotional road block. I sat there and took some time to revise my life... Where my priority's fell, who came first, the people I had in my life.... And it hit me like a ton of bricks.. I may not be the girl that goes to church on Sunday's, that prays at meal time, and yes shamefully I do have my sins, BUT I am a believer and do pray more often than not, I follow the paths he leads me down , and I am a child of God. He gave us this life but we choose how we want to live it, who we want in it, and where we go with it.. As I sat and revised my life, it was revolting.. I had let the demon in and found myself in a whirlwind of gossip.. I don't do gossip! I am so one that will come forward and express my feelings up front. I was so guilty of this vile behavior.  Who am I to make any judgement on ANYONE.  No one can make judgement on other's PLAIN & SIMPLE!! Due to this immature behavior I started to back out of certain peoples life's.  One person was a friend whom suffered a devastating loss and everyone was so focused on her grieving that it never dawned on ANY ONE that we do not know what it like.. The day I was hit with a huge pile of bricks, I sat there and asked for forgiveness. I changed that day. I opened my eyes and apologized. People making comments regarding personal choices, I did not respond, I simply said I don't know. I started to linger away from the negative behavior of others.  I started to pull closer to this heartbroken friend everyone had left in the drifts.. I am a true friend and will do anything for anyone, as most of you know.. I am a friend, a mother, a wife, an aunt, a daughter, and was raised with out my mother for the most part.. It hurt but as I grew older it became easier. My mother made some horrible choices through out her life and it lead to her death ( will be 4 yrs in April) and although it's different I needed a friend during this time and I know she may not come to me to talk about her loss or cry on my shoulder she still is hurting and I am still a friend.. It does not matter, I just want her to know regardless I AM HERE.. Not just for the good as she had mentioned in a blog of hers but for the bad as much as the good.. I have put God first to lead me, my family which mean the world to me and I am so blessed , and friends.. I have always been told and oh how true it is.. YOU DON'T NEED A HUNDRED FRIENDS , IF YOU HAVE ONE JUST ONE GOOD ONE that is good enough. My husband is my Best Friend and I have maybe a handful if that of friends and even smaller of GOOD friends. I tend to trust too easily, care too easily , give too easily, and always have.. I have only been a friend that is human and makes mistakes at times, but all in all a friend.. After revising my life I decided to put my focus on my MAKER, FAMILY , BUSINESS, AND TRUE FRIENDS.. It seemed quite mind blowing how the ones that were being so cruel backed away from me when they saw I had changed the way of my lifestyle.. I have been wanting to lay this all to rest and doing so feels awesome.. My point of this blog is  ~ Live your Life and let others live theirs with out being ridiculed ~ We were not put on this earth to judge others ~  A few more quotes and scriptures....

 this last one is something we all should remember daily..

Much Love,

Jamie

OCTOBER 15 NATIONAL PREGNANCY AND INFANT LOSS REMEMBRANCE DAY...

Having friends that have faced the harsh reality of loosing a child has made me want to show my support and raise awareness... Just wanted to say Bless our sweet angels and may they forever be remembered! A few pics of the candles I lit tonight... Hug your babies and even the moments you get angry at something silly remember how blessed you are to have them here with you... 

Much Love,
Jamie

SOMETHING ABOUT FALL.....

Every year I always find myself getting so antsy for the seasons' to change and it every year it seems like after the fair and balloon fiesta passes FALL approaches.. I love it.. My house is decked out in fall/Halloween decor and my scent in my Scentcy changes from the sweet smell of melon to pumpkin spice and cinnamon... Find my self putting the flip flops away and breaking out the uggs, ordering catalogs for Christmas ideas, changing my wreath on my front door, changing my flowers to cooler weather flowers... I do love Spring and Summer and our wonderful garden that did absolutely amazing this year and there is nothing like walking out your back door only to pick your produce but there is something about fall. Something that makes me step back and look at life.. The joy on the kids face when the leafs start to fall and they get to wear their new coats.. Watching them all dressed up on Halloween and how much fun they have.. Fall brings more joy and love to heart.. Having a beautiful family to spend the amazing holidays with makes me so thankful... As I grow older all these things seem to only get better and better... There is just something about Fall!!!

Much Love,
Jamie

BACK IN THE GRIND....

I have been such a slacker on the blogging end. Just a quick update... We are doing great. Kayleigh started 2nd grade and is going on 21!!! Man we are in trouble.. Kenz is just a monkey and growin like a weed. I have lots , well let me say that again, I have a few things to catch you up on but for now I will leave you with some pictures and my website (well my fan page ... soon to have a web site for my new little business. )

My girls.... and here is my site. Please go check it out! Thanks so much..
https://www.facebook.com/jamierawls82

Much Love,
Jamie

7 YEARS AGO....

So much I have learned in the last 7 yrs.. How incredibly BLESSED I am to have been given such an amazing gift.  7 years ago tonight I was so anxious to meet our beautiful baby girl that I read all the crazy stories about what can induce your labor. Mind you I was 5 days over due so we were ready.  I did the crazy Castor Oil and OJ and Rasberry Leaf Tea and took a shower.  Assuming no way would I go into labor I went to sleep only to wake up in the morning with a SHOW and contractions. Called my Dr and the nurse at the time told me it was probably early labor and could be days..WHAT??????!!!!!!!!!??????????
Really?! So I called Justin and he came home. We timed them and they were every 5 min and down to 3 min.  He said he felt we needed to go.  As the negativity of the typical over due pregnant momma says DON'T GRAB THE BAG I'M NEVER GONNA HAVE THIS BABY!  As first time parents we (more Justin) was a bit nervous. He will say different but seeming he left the back door open and did not even recall this till he had to return back home for the bag due to being at 4 cm and in full blown labor!!!! I am still not sure where these years have gone and wish I could express through the difficult days of dealing with a very independent child that the beautiful days out weigh those moments BY FAR. As I laid with her tonight and cuddled her I told her all about first meeting her and what a wonderful day it was and how she has forever changed our world. She was and is my world.  Embrace every moment cause before you know it we will be sending  them off to college.. These last 7 years have been full of wonderful memories!  They grow up so much in 7 years it's crazy. We are at the stage of starting to not see eye to eye all the time and the attitude but it's another stage of growing up. Some days are pure awful and I dread dealing with whats to come but I love my girl to the moon and back and wouldn't change a thing.  As a mother these are life lessons we wrapped our life around the day we found out we were pregnant.  I am just blown away at how fast time has flown and LOVE my daughter more than words can express and wishing my Lu a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND THANK YOU FOR A BEAUTIFUL 7 YEARS AND LOOK FORWARD TO WHAT GOD HAS IN STORE FOR YOU THE NEXT 7 YEARS !! I love you baby girl and have a GREAT 7th birthday! Kayleigh Madison Rawls 4/27/04 9:07 pm 8lbs 8 oz 21 in long ... God put his trust in us that day and gave us such a beautiful gift!

Happy Birthday big girl.. You have grown in to such a smart beautiful girl. I love you forever my sweet LU....

BUSY...BUSY...BUSY

I can't get over how fast 2011 is going!  I am full swing with Premier Design and PRAY this was the right decision.  As with any business you have your fears, and feel a little lost when you first start but I know God will lead me the right direction and help me through this new exciting journey!  So with that consuming me (which I have no complaints) I am also still struggeling with Kayleigh and her behavior, Kenz is hitting the terreble 2's and man oh man she is a a little cutie but gives me a run for my money.  Both dogs have mass's on them????!!!!??????  That calls for vet visits...  I am having dental work done which I dread but oral hygene is super important to me so gotta get it done... We all 4 have birthdays coming up... I am trying to book shows around those dates and around Easter and Mothers day... Justin built 3 out of 6 of my garden beds and they look great.. I will set aside time for my gardening!!! Kay was off for Spring Break and returns tomorrow. We will be heading out to North Carolina in June.. I am not in in front of Calander so not sure exact dates but we will be flying out ( This will be very interesting seeming Kenz hates sitting...) and having a consult with Dr. Jeffery Marcus at Duke regarding Kayleigh's facial paralysis and the procedure we hope to get scheduled.. SMILE SURGERY.. She is not having any part of the idea right now but we will see once we talk with him. Just wanted to update on life lately..  Busy as a Bee and lovin it... I have some super cute pics to post but I am off to bed.  Oh as lots of sickness has gone around we have managed to stay pretty darn healthy this year!!!! Thats a blessing for sure. Hope your all doing well....

Much Love,
Jamie

My quote lately...NEVER UNDERESTIMATE YOUR SELF... ALTHOUGH SOME THINGS COME HARDER FOR YOU ..TAKE YOUR TIME AND ASK GOD TO HELP LEAD YOU... YOU CAN NEVER BE TOO SMART, THERE'S ALWAYS MORE TO LEARN IN LIFE.. DON'T GIVE UP...

OH THE DIY BLOGS HAVE TAKIN OVER.... AND THEN GARDENING....

Thanks to a dear ole friend ROCHELLE for introducing a diy blog that has gottin my crafty booty dusted off and back to crafting!  I had in my head what I wanted to do, from pillows to makin an old entertainment center into a play kitchen, to stenciling, and the ideas kept pouring.. I had a list of (well let's get honost )I HAVE a list of all these cute and cheap diy projects and I WILL do them. Very possibly in a no rush manner but with weather changing and SPRING is just a leap away im so excited to start. Now some may be pushed on back burner due to GARDENING!  We are expanding our garden and will have 5 raised beds this year..Lot's more growin like blackberrys, blueberrys, rasberrys, and curious on grapes?!? SO  my idea would have to be drawn for you to see.... BUT I want 1 bed for zuchinni, eggplant, squash,  and cucumbers... 1 bed for peas, beans, brussel sprouts, okra and MAYBE pickels! 1 bed for my jalapenos, all my chili plants, peppers, tomatillos! 1 bed for tomato's, onions,carrots, radish's spinach, broccoli, artichoke, lettuce.. and maybe starting my asperagus this year though it takes a good 2 yrs to get goin. And must not forget the watermelon, cataulope, and TONS of strawberrys... We will be planting the berry bushes along wall so they can grow up something.. Jus is gonna build me a white picket fence to go around my pride and joys! I plan on making a smaller bed for my seasonings( cilantro, oregano, catnip :), parsely, and more....OH GARDENING HOW I LOVE YOU AND SPENDING MY VERY EARLY MORNINGS WITH YOU A CUP OF JOE AND THE POLLINATING BEES!!!

So back to these diy blogs, any of you ever interested in hitting antique outlets lets go.... buy neat things that make even neater things!!! :) I have adventured on to other blogs and there is one below that inspired me to get the girls white shirts for st pattis and the rest is left to be viewed of what is to come of the white tees....! view her blog below!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....off to bed I go for ballet in the am and maybe some antique stores .....
Much Love,
Jamie